I love my mom.
I am risking nothing.
you actually accused me of cheating on you last night.
really? that’s not even something remotely close to something i would ever do.
if you said that i stabbed someone. sure. i might actually do that.
but cheating? wow. shows how much you know me. i might talk to guys and the way i talk might seem like i’m flirting or whatever. but would i ever actually do anything? no.
i’d actually kill someone before i did something as stupid as cheat.
honestly, i don’t even know why we’re back together. the only fucking reason you even decided to apologize to me for “being so quick to assume things” is because i fucking threatened your stupid ass rims. honestly, you were worried i was going to scratch them. i was going to do much worse than just fucking scratching them. they wouldn’t have even looked like fucking rims anymore when i was done.
and after that you only even apologized for starting a fight.
the only reason you decided that you even wanted to talk to me anymore was because i told you i wouldn’t do anything to your rims.
that’s not you loving me or caring about us. that’s you being worried about your fucking rims. that’s you feeling shit because i decided to be nice and not fucking your shit up.
i mean don’t get me wrong. i want to still be in a relationship with you. we’re 4 days away from our 2 year anniversary. and i’ll always want to be with you.. but i don’t know how much more of this shit i can take.
yea, i love you and i don’t want to be with anyone else and i don’t want us to break up for good but if you can’t see that, one day you’ll find out that i’m really not as nice as i seem.
when i’m gone, you’ll realize how hard it’ll be for you to find someone who actually cares as much for you as i do and wants to be with you as much as i do. yea, you had girls falling head over heels for you before you had me. but how many of them would stay with you and put up with all the shit you’ve put me through? how many would have put up through all fights and still stay faithful to you? how many girls would actually change so much for you? how much have i limited myself for you? i don’t wear the clothes i want to, i don’t use the makeup i want to, i don’t drive my car, i don’t go out with my friends, i have to ask you before going out with just mimi.. why? because you don’t want to feel like i’m getting dressed up for anyone else, because it makes you feel bad, because it has to be okay with you. who else would be okay with all of that besides me? you really are lucky to have me. i hope you can see that.
Some say I’ll be better without you,
But they don’t know you like I do,
Or at least the sides I thought I knew,
I can’t bear this time, It drags on as I lose my mind,
Reminded by things I find, Like notes and clothes you’ve left behind,
Wake me up, wake me up when all is done,
I won’t rise until this battle’s won,
My dignity’s become undone,
But I won’t go, I can’t do it on my own,
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk,
I won’t go.
There will be times, we’ll try and give it up,
Bursting at the seams, no doubt,
We’ll almost fall apart and burn the pieces,
And watch them turn to dust,
But nothing will ever taint us,
I walked into Ulta thinking,
“Oh I’ll only spend maybe $30 on Urban Decay products. I’ll get my liner and lipgloss!”
So I find my lipgloss—this is perfect! Then I look around for the liner. I want a liquid liner, but i wanted a studier tip than a brush.. couldnt find one so i thought i’d get a creamy eyeshadow instead.
Then my eyes are drawn to “marshmallow”
yum. sparkling lickable body powder! ….i love glitter and i love sparkling.. and i love marshmallows! *smells* mmm it smells so good! hmmm. sparkling lickable body powder…
i grab for it and then it starts
OMG this eyeshadow is cute too. You know what I don’t need the liner i have tons of black eyeliner at home! I’ll get this eyeshadow instead of going the liquid liner route *referring to the different tutorials i watched for Stocking’s makeup*
OH AND I NEED EYELASHES.
So instead of spending $30ish altogether for a $17 lipgloss and a $16 liner.. I ended up spending around $75. Could’ve even at least been 40 if it wasnt for that body powder… but im in love with it :333 it just smells so good! and its so tasty!
but seriously.. i do this too. go into ulta for a new top coat which should only be $10 at the most. come out with like $50 worth of stuff. >.<
i do this at sephora and mac too. it’s really bad. :(