accioJOEY

i know i fucked up.
but regardless..

there’s no reason to act like i don’t already put you first, or that i don’t show it to you. yea it’d be nice if he backed off, it might even be easier if he did. but you don’t make it any easier either. i already made a decision, so there’s no need to be a cocky jerk. i already know what i can and can’t do, thanks. so how about you stop ignoring the fact that i made a decision. ”you have to put the last piece of the puzzle together.” dude. i already made a decision. i told you that several times.

and the more i think about the more i realize i don’t even know how i fucked up.
you logged into my tumblr to read my private blog off of a gut feeling.
i don’t even think you even read everything to realize that the blog is literally everything that went through my mind. it’s not me saying “oh how i made a huge mistake in leaving” or “oh i’m leaving you for him”. i was so damn confused and was literally typing down all of my thoughts so i could sort out everything and in the fucking end i decided to stick with you. i might think about things many different things but i don’t act upon my thoughts.
MAYBE instead of looking at the ones where i’m sorting my thoughts out.. you should read the one that’s actually about you!